A Change Is Gonna Come…

Sometimes this feels right. This feels like it’s the only thing that people should do. That I should do. I was having this really interesting conversation with an old friend today about destiny and whether or not the decisions you make in life are worth anything or is everything laid out for you and everything is predetermined. The only conclusion I drew from this talk was that no matter the evidence, people will believe what they feel is right. And in the end that is what real values represent. I’m not saying that believing something proven wrong is OK, but if there is no way to demonstrate whether this certain theory is true or not then it may be better to go with your feelings. And everybody should just fucking accept that. Don’t push your ideas on others, just learn to love them as they are and respect their choices. Things aren’t always black and white. I believe there’s always a gray area of interpretation in these matters. And the world should just view this with arms wide open and respect everyone in the same way. We are all in the same pot if you think about it. We’re all humans and we’re all gonna pass away eventually. So why live in hate and ignorance of each other when we only have so much to lose. People are stubborn. Maybe to stubborn for their own good. Maybe they will catch on to the right way just a little bit to late. And apparently they think it’s worth risking the entire species of man just for the stubbornness of a few that planted these ideas in men’s heads.

Love is also stubborn sometimes. Whether it’s about love for ones God,ones life partner or ones child. Sometimes it’s hard to fucking let go of things. Because we implanted this absurd idea that we can’t go on without this significant other. And then we work for years and years just to let go. Just to feel free for that fragment of a moment before some other kind of love sucks us in and rapes our mind and soul. I’m not saying love is a bad thing, but when we forget about the pureness of this feeling and we turn it into obsession. No matter who you love, even if it seems impossible, you can move on. You can live long and be happy. Just don’t  let yourself get sucked in by loneliness and think that you can’t go on without someone at your side. And if you decide to spend a period of your life with someone then do it just for the simple reasons. That smile that only she can set on your face. You know the one I’m talking about. That really really pure smile that comes out of joy from the soul. Do it for that moment when you open your eyes and you see that person lying right next to you and you feel like you’re the fucking king of all existence. Just because you won her.

Whatever path in life you should take, the most important thing is to remember to feel. Remember to be pure and never let your mind talk you out of doing what you feel like. Go ahead, make your move, if this is what you found deep inside your being then just do it. The whole universe dares you to move. Let yourself get dragged through existence by this unimaginable experience. Enjoy pain, desire love, just feel alive. You can be better. Start forgiving yourself and the people around you for mistakes that never really hurt someone at all. Don’t do it for divinity or for the promise of a better future. Do it because it feels right. Do it because nothing compares to the satisfaction that fills you up and floats you high, like a hot air balloon. Sometimes I ask myself, was there anything that I could have said or done? But it’s important to remember that we live here and now. It’s important to know that the past is gone. That time is no more and it does not matter anymore. Just do it for this moment! Don’t leave the stage in the middle of a song.

But to get to the point of this here tale. I truly believe a great change is upon us. I think humanity is at a point where we need a missing link to progress as a species. I believe we lost this great thing quite some time ago and we have forgotten how to get it back. Well now it depends on what you compare this symbol to. First of all some think there will come a time of chaos and destruction because of the greed of people. Wealth is their symbol. It is the simple minded approach to the earthly issue. It’s common because money is real, it is palpable and, in the end, it’s what people apparently desire the most. The second type of people are those who believe the divine end is nearing. Irrelevant of religion, they all have this day of reckoning. This end of all things. These people believe in a higher power but they each chose to model it to their wishes and desires. They always find loopholes but they still believe their soul is saved. If you say you believe in this spiritual father then at least be honest and follow his word. If not you’re wasting everyone’s time. And by everyone I mean you as well. Lastly there are the group of people that believe that humanity is on the brink of a new era. They believe that only those pure of heart will ascend to the next state of existence. It is thought that this form we are in is just the beginning of the road for enlightenment. Those who see their body as just a container for our universal projection. We have always felt a connection to a greater power but we never really got around describing it. I think we are complicating things to much and we expect things to just work one way or the other. When all we should do is spread kindness and hope to all fellow humans. We should teach each other what love and compassion is. So that, even if this is the end and maybe we are just simple organisms in the infinity of the universe, we get to to do ourselves the favor of living for everyone and not only for yourself.

So here comes goodbye. I hope you have had a confusing and intriguing journey with some of my more or less real thoughts. The thing is that no matter how shitty things get, doing something good for someone else will always make you feel uplifted. So spread love and always give back to your fellow man.

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E-Mail To My Heart…

What can I say?You got the e-mail adress right I guess…Nu am ce scrie,tu stii deja tot ce trebuie sa stii.Nu vreau sa analizez ce ai scris.Nu vreau sa imi dau cu parerea.Pentru ca poate inteleg ceva gresit.De altfel tot timpul intelegeam ceva gresit.La un moment dat ti-am spus…Nu mai judec,nu mai analizez,nu mai inteleg,doar accept.Culmea ca incetul cu incetul tot am facut asa.Mi se pare foarte impersonal si detasat.De altfel celorlalti le place.Le place sa fie acceptati asa cum sunt si se simt apropiati.Sunt toti niste prosti.Nu sunt eu acela care va putea sa te inteleaga macar putin.Nu sunt eu acela care va putea sa te cunoasca.As fi vrut sa fie asa dar sunt prea simplu.Pardon,nu cred ca simplu e cuvantul potrivit pentru ca nu sunt chiar asa.Si tu cunosti doar o parte din mine.Ma rog,neesential.Am spus ca te accept si asa a fost.Nu am nici cea mai vaga idee cum sa-ti raspund.Mi-am consumat ieri noapte inspiratia.Spui ca ne-ai dat noua tot?Pai si eu ti-am dat tie ce puteam sa-ti dau.Si sper sa ti macar acea particica pe care vreau sa o ai din mine si sa o pui bine.Behind those sad eyes of yours lies a beautiful being capable of unimaginable things.Ai fost extaz si agonie.Ai fost o ploaie calda de vara in care saruti pe cineva drag cu pasiune si nu uiti niciodata acel moment.Vezi ce prost poate fi omul? “Ce vrei de la mine?” “Nimic”.Ba da.Cum sa nu vreau nimic.Vreau sa fiu acolo in cele mai importante momente ale vieti tale.Vreau sa nu se termine niciodata povestea ta.Vreau sa-ti traiesti viata odata si sa nu mai stai in gandurile tale.Mai vreau sa te iau in brate macar o data si sa te invart.Vreau sa te aud cum pufnesti in ras si razi fara sa te opresti la comentarile mele stupide.Vreau sa-ti traversez strada sufletului dar sa ma opresc la mijloc intre masini si imi pun steagul acolo.ALEX WAS HERE!Si daca ar fi sa dea masina peste mine macar as fi fericit ca am fost acolo.Mai vreau sa pot spune in noaptea intre 28 si 29 martie 2009 La multi ani ne cunoastem de un an.As vrea sa pot spune ne cunoastem de 10 ani si de 20 de ani si in fiecare an si luna.Vreau sa fiu ala care te fura de la nunta si te duce in lume ca doar asa am spus.Pardon am spus ca te fur inainte de nunta ca sa o iau inainte unui anumite persoane.Vreau sa radem despre lucruri triviale si stupide si sa facem viata un joc,care chiar daca se termina macar sa stim ca l-am jucat cum am vrut.Dar mai presus de toate vreau sa fi tu fericita si sa traiesti asa cum consideri tu ca e bine.Sa iei decizii si sa nu mai stai analizand totul atat de mult.Alege ce crezi tu ca e mai bine pentru tine.Te-am pus bine in sufletul meu.Esti acolo si de acolo n-o sa pleci niciodata.Si asculta de mine pentru ca stiu ce spun.Nu te gandi ca te voi uita pentru ca nu va fi asa nici daca fac Alzheimer si mi se distruge creierul.Deci in final…Ce alegi?Mergem mai departe impreuna sau o luam pe alte drumuri?Tu stii ce-mi doresc eu.Deci nu fa ce crezi ca e mai bine pentru mine ci ce e mai bine pentru tine.Adio sau Pe Curand?

Si se pare ca a fost Pe Curand…dar la urma urmei tot am ajuns la Adio…

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The Star From Heavens…

Love is always patient and kind…it is never jealous…Love is never boastfull or concieded…It is never rude nor selfish…It does not take offence and is not resentfull…Love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins but delights in the truth…It is always ready to excuse,to trust,to hope…and to endure…whatever comes…I’m sorry for everything I said…You saved me…You are my hope and my faith…I will never forget you and I will love you no matter what…I promise to be there for you whenever you may need me…The radiance of a Star is a mere glimmer of the love I have for you…I want to be your angel wings and help you fly to wherever you may want to go…please believe in me…I love you…

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Angel Without Wings…

An angel without wings can hardly fly…and love without a dream can not survive…ma chinui sa scriu ceva…nu stiu ce va iesi…simt nevoia sa scriu dar parca sunt scarbit la gandul ca nu stiu ce scriu…nu simt nimic in momentul de fata…ascult doar muzica plina de inteles si de sentimente pe care nu vreau sa le inteleg…ma scarbeste…simt ca vomit…nu ma simt de loc in pielea mea…parca as vrea sa evadez sa fug si sa las totul aici…absolut totul…sa uit ca a existat vreodata cineva si sa incep din nou…n-am la cine sa ma intorc…sper sa pot eventual sa plec…poate va fi greu…dar nu simt ca mai pot…nu mai pot sa ma tin de promisiune…nu mai pot spune ca sunt aici pentru tine…vreau sa plec…si poate ne vom mai intalnii vreodata…si atunci voi putea sati spun ce trebuie…am spus ca o persoana trebuie sa duca o viata fara regrete…nici de asa ceva nu pot sa ma tin…regret prea multe pentru a le exprima in cuvinte…m-am saturat sa fiu acea persoana pe care ti-am descris-o (eu sunt prietenul tuturor…fraierul tuturor…acela care ajuta aproape tot timpu si nu primeste nimic in schimb…acela care spera si ii moare si speranta…sunt persoana care iubeste pe cineva care iubeste pe altcineva…sunt persoana care inca mai viseaza degeaba…sunt persoana caruia ii pasa tot timpu…si degeaba ii pasa…).

Am scris o porcarie…dar o voi publica…poate va fi ultima…poate nu…adio amintiri…

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Meredith Grey…

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day – those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

Citat de pe blogul unei prietene careia ii simt lipsa… http://ucidevisul.wordpress.com

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Welcome Home…

I’m back…am sosit…m-am intors…ce vacanta…ce amintiri…nu le voi uita niciodata.Discutii adanci…distractie nesfarsita…damblaua facuta…chiar am prieteni nebuni si buni.Sunt atatea de povestit…dar nu am chef…am doar chef…sa zic…I LOVE YOU MY FRIENDS!!!!!Si-alta data si-alta data oooooooo s-o facem si mai si mai lata!!!!!

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So many things…

Ar fi trebuit sa am multe posturi pt ultimele zile…cred ca evenimentele m-au luat cu surprindere si am ignorat blog-ul spre rusinea mea.In primul rand…sunt major…am trecut si eu de pragul acela subtire al copilariei…dar nu ma simt diferit…sunt aceasi persoana copilaroasa si nebuna de tot timpul.A fost o seara de neuitat…radiam de fericire…totul in jurul meu era de o frumusete nemaivazuta…imi dadeau lacrimile vazandu-mi prietenii…am o viata frumoasa…si nu regret multe din ea…asta se spune ca e idealul unei vieti,sa traiesti o viata fara regrete…dar parerea mea este ca fara a trai sentimentul incredibil pe care il ai cand ai sarutat persoana cu care iti vei petrece restul vietii nu ai trait de loc.

Ea a plecat…fata careia i-am promis…nu e vorba despre o iubire…este cineva special…la care tin foarte mult. Merita tot ce este mai bun in aceasta lume…si mie dor de ea…she’s my lucky charm…dar oricum va trebui sa ma descurc pana vine…asa ca…te astept…

Ieri de asemenea am realizat ca trebuie sa am incredere in mine mai multa…si de asemenea trebuie sa cred in prietenii mei adevarati cand imi dau un sfat…ca sigur stiu despre ce vorbesc.Nu merita sa fiu suparat sau trist pentru unele lucruri, pentru ca viata ti-o croiesti cu propria mana chiar daca in final ai un scop prestabilit.Asa e viata de fapt…toti dam sfaturi pe care nu le ascultam decat daca le primim si noi de la cineva inapoi…dar asa e bine…e cald…e frumos.

In final…vreau sa va sugerez o melodie… Edwin Mccain – I’ll Be… e melodia mea preferata e speciala…promisiuni frumoase… luati-o…ascultati-o…pe mine m-a atins…si tot timpul ma ajuta intr-un fel mai aparte…

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