Little Dreams…

I have these little dreams sometimes.I guess they are wishes that take forms of fantasies or dreams. Two nights ago I dreamed I was a hero who saved a dozen of people from a natural disaster.It’s probably a reflection of my inner desire to achieve something important in my life.Something that really matters.Something that will inspire numerous people. That is one of my ambitions and for now I can only dream about it.Be careful what you wish for cause you might get it all. Well who knows if it’s the right thing to wish for,but right now that’s what I believe.I’ve seen a lot of sadness around me lately. I have seen through the eyes of an adult.I have seen the everlasting corridor that is hopelessness.No wonder they can’t overcome their limits.

Yesterday I dreamed of an incredibly beautiful girl.She was amazing and she was called Madeline.She flew through my dreams like a muse.She had brown hair with blond locks.Madeline made me crazy,she obsessed me.We had sex in my dream.Or did we make love?I don’t know.We did it 5 times anyway.It was strange,but yet it grew better each time. I wish Madeline was real.She was superb.I’m going home…to the place where I belong…where your love has always been enough for me.Les Miserables.

Today I dreamed with my eyes open.I dreamed of a movie,of a movie about all their lives.More like a whole season of shows because a movie wouldn’t be enough to cover everything up.Although I could direct one for each of them. We shall see.My point is that I would like to write some movie scripts and direct them. Dramas and romantic comedies would mainly be the subject I would cover,but I think the biggest success would be a sequel to the best comedy ever, Eurotrip.These places and these spaces are getting old.

I miss my feelings.They’ve been scattered all over the world and I cannot find them.My strength is depleted and I lay on the ground powerless.What must I do in order to regain my former self?I would give it my all,but I have no light to search for.No purpose,no future vision.Although my purpose is happiness as it is for all humans,I feel the need to do something more right now.And as I said,I first need to regain my strength.Onegai…

These are my little dreams.I wonder what awaits me tonight.Hope to see you Madeline.Summer Love eh?

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10 Motive…

1.Nu mai regret nici o clipa care a fost cu tine,regret doar ca sunt prea putine acum.

2.Tu ma faceai sa scriu cel mai des,cel mai frumos si cel mai sincer.Inca faci asta ocazional.

3.E mai liniste acum pe strazile pustii.Nu mi-au mai soptit stelele de mult ceva.Era si putin ciudat cand chiar mergeam pe strada si vorbeam cu ele.Si nu,nu e o metafora.

4.Parafrazez: A fost un cliseu de la inceput.Da,dar pot doar sa sper sa mai traiesc asa un cliseu.

5.Chiar daca,vorba ta,nu prea semeni cu acel personaj a carui nume ti l-am atribuit,pe tine te cheama asa.E botezul meu mic si neinsemnant.

6.Ti-am zic ca in fiecare zi ma gandesc cel putin o fractiune de secunda la tine.Si asa va fi foarte multa vreme si a fost de foarte multa vreme asa.

7.N-am imbratisat pe nimeni cum te-am imbratisat pe tine.Si garantez ca nu va fi niciodata altcineva.

8.Iti multumesc ca m-ai ajutat asa de mult,poate chiar fara sa-ti dai seama.

9.Regret extrem de mult ca pleci,dar poate asa a fost sa fie.Iti doresc tot binele acolo si sa revi cat mai repede.

10.O stii deja,dar tu vei fi mereu undeva aproape de mine.Vei fi mereu in gandul meu si in sufletul meu.Si sper ca stii si asta,eu sunt si voi fi oricand alaturi de tine.In orice moment ai dori sa vorbesti,sa te plangi,sa te bucuri,sa iesim la o cafa,stii ca ma poti chema.Iti multumesc inca o data.

P.S. Ai devenit o domnisoara superba.Sunt mandru de tine.

Imi voi pune lucrurile in ordine pentru ca deja am o viata prea haotica.Am inceput ieri si urmeaza o perioada de deintoxicare.Va fi ori foarte bine,ori oribil dar nu mai am de ales.

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Led By A Song…

Fac o incercare de a scrie ceva decent pentru ca ma simt putin inspirat de un set de melodii superbe pe care le ascult momentan.Vreau putina liniste si putina departare de lume.Vreau relaxarea aia specifica pe care am planuit-o de ceva timp.Am nevoie de o clipa doar pentru mine.Sa trag linie si sa vad unde stau cu anumite lucruri.Si am sa incep aici,ca doar aici au avut loc multe inceputuri,dar si multe sfarsituri.

In general nu-mi place singuratatea,probabil pentru ca ma plictiseste groaznic si plictiseala chiar e un sentiment dezgustator.Te face sa te simti nefolositor.Sigur,plictiseala merge si mana in mana cu lenea in general,dar noi rareori realizam asta si dam vina pe ceilalti.Totusi,cred ca vara asta am nevoie de ceva timp singur.Si cand zic singur,chiar ma refer singur.Nu cu mama,tata si toata satra.Nu cu prieteni,amici,colegi si frati de betie.Sa ma rasfat intr-un oras strain, cu o carte buna,la o cafenea cocheta pe coltul unei strazi plina de cladiri cu un design arhitectural vechi.Ah,ce imagine superba.Nu vreau mult mai multe pentru ca sunt destul de comod.Dar cred ca m-as simti bine asa.As vizita cateva locuri din cand in cand,dar fara program strict.Doar cand as simtii ca e momentul sa fac altceva.Timp am destul asa ca probabil o voi face.Bani am momentan suficienti.As fi vrut sa vizitez unele persoane dar nu stiu daca va fi posibil… Se pare ca am avut dreptate pana la urma.Din pacate de data asta nu ma simt bine cand spun “I told you so”.

Apropo va plac Westlife?Ma gandeam ca nu.Poate sunt eu prea old fashion dar mie imi plac destul de mult.Posibil pentru ca am crescut cu muzica lor.Poate pentru ca au melodii pline de vise si de scenarii greu de realizat in momentul de fata.Cine stie de ce?Ei,cand ascult Westlife imi amintesc de fiecare data de un alt capitol pe care trebuie sa-l pun la punct.Poate imi bat prea mult capul cu toate.Poate ar fi mai bine sa nu-mi pese de nimic si sa-mi vad de treaba mea. Degeaba ar fi mai bine pentru ca eu nu pot asa.Imi place sa ma ambalez si sa ma stresez pentru orice chestie cat de mica ar fi.Simt ca traiesc mai intens daca ma implic mai mult cu toate ca e mai neplacut deseori.Dar la urma urmei cu ce ma ajuta daca traiesc mult cand de fapt n-am “trait” de loc?Anyway ar mai fi multe de spus.Azi am fost egoist si am scris despre mine din nou,dar am avut nevoie de acest mic post.This love is Unbreakable.Sayonara.

Published in: on July 20, 2009 at 12:43 am  Leave a Comment  
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Memo…

Pe data de 24 Martie 2017,in caz ca nu vine apocalipsa in 2012 bla bla bla,te cer in casatorie.Sa nu uiti ca am stabilit.Eh si o sa-ti placa cum o fac.I just love these deals don’t you?

Nu prea am nimic interesant de scris azi.Poate in urmatoarele zile voi mai face si eu vreun upload placut pe blog.Sper ca reusesc.Anywho acest post e doar un memo sa fie oficiala intelegerea.Muahahahaha.Ushibuu,Obi Wan Kanobi.(Yes I know it’s spelled wrong,but that’s kinda the point so shove it).

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