Extaz…

Nu crezi?Iti dovedesc.Ce vrei mai mult decat atat?Pot sau nu pot?La vie en rose nu?Ce rost mai au cuvintele cand totul e asa de clar explicat incat nici nu trebuie sa vezi ce scriu incat sa intelegi…Sau poate nu intelegi,ca doar asa imi place mie sa te incurc.Ce superb e sentimentul acesta…de a sta cu ochii larg deschisi,uitandu-te in gol.Genial…nu…genial nu e cuvantul potrivit…sa zicem senzational,fenomenal,extazic.Kid,vezi ce ti-am zis?Eu chiar scriu la extaz…Maine totul va fi disparut.E ca si un drog,il iau dar uit ce am facut in seara respectiva.E genial.Pardon,din nou genial,e de vis.De ce ai nevoie mai mult decat de muzica?De mult mai multe draga mea.Ai nevoie de dragoste.Ai nevoie de iubire si de nebunie.De jocuri infantile,pudice,stupide chiar, care sa iti coloreze viata in roz.Ce gay e culoarea,dar daca asa se spune…Ei si ce daca asa se spune?Mie imi place mov si eu vreau sa se spuna ca viata este mov.Movul e frumos,e adanc,e pasional,e misterios,e condimentul ascuns…E cu mult mai delicios decat sarea si piperul despre care toti vorbesc si spun ca au nevoie de ele in viata lor.Ce zici de putin curry?Sau paprika?Nu stii niciodata ce va fi movul.Aberez.DA!!!Si imi place.Ador sa aberez si sa spun prosti.Ador sa fabulez si sa filozofez despre lucruri triviale si simple.Ador sa scriu subiectiv si personal.Ador sa traiesc viata nu sa o povestesc in moduri crude si vulgare,provocatoare de greata.E degradant si e drumul decaderii umane.Cine citeste asemenea lucruri trebuie sa fi pierdut orice gram de speranta in lume.Chiar credeti ca in lume nu mai exista un strop de bunatate?De iubire si de frumusete?Lucruri care pot intoarce intreaga planeta cu capul in jos.Credeti ca totul e mizerabil?Pai va inselati mon frer.La vie en rose.Omul optimist nu e orb si nu e prost.E presus tuturor.El face la fel de multe ca si restul dintre voi doar ca o face cu zambetul pe buze.O face reusind sa faca si pe cei din jur sa schiteze un zambet.E batjocorit,e luat de fraier dar nu ii pasa.Pana la urma o duce el la capat si o duce bine.As veni acum la tine.Dar nu nu.Nu confunda,nu esti tu cea la care as veni.De fapt nu stii la cine ma refer,tu cititorule.Nu ai nici cea mai vaga idee daca esti tu sau altcineva.Sau poate nu e nimeni.Poate e imaginatia unui nebun care si-a pierdut si ultimul gram de normalitate.Pentru ca normal,cineva l-a luat si pe acela.Excelent,doar nu am nevoie de asa ceva.Va dau tot.Luati-mi laptopul, luati-mi televizorul,luati-mi casa,luati-mi masina,luati-mi viata…ce mai conteaza?Sunt prea extazic pentru orice.Daca as muri la ora 3:01 in noaptea de 30 noiembrie 2008 as muri un om fericit.Sau nebun,dar le consideram sinonime acum.Pentru ca fericirea fara condimentul mov,nebun nu se poate.Ati inteles ceva din ce transmit?ABSOLUT NIMIC!!!Excelent.Deci mi-am indeplinit misiunea.Au revoir mon amour.Si tocmai am avut orgasmul de scriitor.

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Published in: on November 30, 2008 at 4:03 am  Comments (4)  
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Pauza…

Am nevoie de o pauza(dupa cum bine se observa in titlul acestui post).Am nevoie de cateva zile in care sa ma rup de toti si de toate,interval in care voi reflecta asupra anumitor aspecte care momentan imi creeaza pitici pe creier.Undeva in amintirile mele asa o “pauza” se contureaza in felul urmator: Un film vechi bun pe care l-am vizionat de N ori dar care mereu va trezi ceva in mine.O plimbare cu playerul in urechi in jurul oraselului mic, trecand prin locuri care au insemnat ceva pentru mine.O ninsoare abundenta care umple strazile cu zapada si face plimbarea mult mai placuta datorita framantarii zapezii de catre ghete.Un miros de ger si de apropierea Craciunului in aer.Uitarea problemelor de la facultate care vor continua sa se adune.Uitarea ei si a ei si a ei si a ei si a ei si a ei si a ei.7 “ei”.Cu noroc?Ma indoiesc.Cele 7 “ea” sunt persoane de care as prefera sa ma departez pentru ca imi fac doar zile negre.Dar ce sa-i fac nu se prea poate asa ceva.Am nevoie de praf de stele si de vise reanimate.Am nevoie de inocenta lasata in acest locsor numit Lugoj.Am nevoie de prea multe lucruri pe care nu le pot avea si de care trebuie sa ma rup.Greu, ce sa spun altceva?Aberez din nou si nu scriu nimic folositor dar ce altceva sa fac?Imi amintesc prea multe lucruri…” Ce vrei de la mine?”; “Sorrela”; “I’d like to have a big brother like you”; “tebayo”; “BURP!”; “Would I be out of line if I said I missed you?”; “M-am indragostit” si asa mai departe…Care eu?Care tu?Care voi?Ce chitara canta in fundal?Cine e departe si totusi asa aproape?De cand nu te-am mai vazut?O sa-ti dai seama cand mai cresti? Vei face alegerea buna?…Nu ma mai ascultati!!!Sunt instabil,confuz,emotiv,ilogic,o povara.De ce nu va intra in cap asta odata?!Numai rau va iesi din tot…Incapatinate mai sunteti Doamne.Parca eu v-am nascut pe toate.Dealtfel sunteti o parte din mine dar invers nu stiu.Nici nu as vrea,dupa cum spuneam…Nimic bun nu va iesi.Greu v-ar fi sa nu va mai pese…GAH!!!FRUSTRATION TAKING OVER.Sunt un boboc pe cale sa o ia pe alt drum si nu cred ca pot sa va iau cu mine…Nu mai pot…Imi pare rau…Maturitatea si-a bagat picioru’-n mine.Trist…Va iubesc si da,stiu ce spun si stiu ce inseamna!Adio…Sau Poate…Pe Curand…

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Blinded…

This’ll be just a short post just for the sake of writing something.I feel that the inspiration is gathering but I need to write something out of…instinct.So I’m not sure you should mind this one.Actually I suggest you not mind my entire blog but nonetheless.

I miss you.I miss those long nights that we used to talk without stopping.I miss sharing the things we shared and just dreaming about those stars.Remember the stars? I used to talk to them and they’d tell you what I thought.Good times.But every beautiful rose fades away…and this one has faded too.No matter how much we try to revive it…winter kills it without mercy.It’s sad but true.Just know that our memories are encarved in the stars and if you want to remember the slightest things about us…just look up into the night sky and they’ll tell you our story little one.I have no idea why these thought come up right now…Maybe the stars are telling me something again…maybe i’m reminiscing those times.Who knows.Winter is comming…I can hardly wait for the falling snow.Winter smell…

My present is clouded in mistery and unknown.What should I do?There’s this path that seems so clear in front of my eyes…but I’m afraid to take it because of temptation.She’s lurking around the corner and I don’t know when she’ll pounce.But if I don’t take this oportunity I’ll regret it.I think I’ll leave it to chance.Flip a coin.Just think about it…how randome life is…a cointoss can affect anything.I say tails…what will the outcome be?Whatever the outcome…I’m staring in the sun.Chan…

(Apropo laura vezi ca maine la 7 te astept in gara :)) Free food and a place to stay await you :> )

Published in: on November 19, 2008 at 2:40 am  Comments (3)  
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For Those Who Touched My Life…

I’m never writing anything concrete, I just philosophise about certain problems in life never giving any stable meaning to them.They may be mine or someone elses but I never say exactly what happend.This post is just for a few people that I care about and those I wish to tell a few things but I’d rather say it this way…

Lilah – You’ve been there for quite some time.I don’t know where that somewhere is but I know it’s inside of me.You were a really big part of my life…someone I don’t think I can ever replace in that particular way.We used to dream about our stars that never seemed to fade away,yet they still did.Things happend,people changed(maybe not for the best) and we were torn apart.I just want you to know that you’ll always have that special place in me.I’m glad that you were a part of my life and that you made it brighter that summer of 2007 that seemed endless.Goodbye.

Laura – People meet in wierd ways don’t they? Well maybe meet is kind of streched out here because we’ve never actually met, still I’ve grown to see a good friend in you.You have that certain something of childish behaviour and unexpected maturity that few people can balance just right.I’m glad that you’re part of my life even if I don’t know how long it’ll last but I hope as long as possible.You’re that spot of colour that always knows what to say.(By the way,it’s gonna be allright 🙂 )Goodbye.

Teo –  Sometimes I think you have more energy than a five year-old and that’s hard to beat.You never seem tired not even when you say that you’re on the verge of passing out.Talking to you is always fun even though most of the time there’s nothing remotely serious in the conversation.Maybe that’s what so good about it.People have to forget about everyday worries and just relax.Talking about random, unesential stuff is just great and it helps forget about all the crappy things in my life.I’m glad we’re friends and I hope we’ll have a lot of fun together.Goodbye.

Deea – So we’ve know eachother for over four and a half years and you’ve become a huge part of my life.One of the most important parts actually.My life would have been significantly different if we’d have never met on that faithful day of May. You’re my sister,you’re my friend,you’re so much more to me than most people.I want you to know that I love you very, very much and that I’m someone you can always count on,in good and in bad times.I’m your big brother even though it’s just something we settled.I may be a little overprotective at times but that’s only because I care.And you know I’m never serious with those things. Sometimes I said some bad things and I hurt you even though you were only trying to help and I’m sorry for those times.I love you sister and I hope we’ll always stay friends.Goodbye.

Lavi – I can’t belive I still remember when we met for the first time.I mean when we talked,cause it was long before we actually met.It was during a beerfest here in Lugoj and we met on that stupid chatting program Mirc.You were LPGirl,liking linking park.That was about 3 and a half years ago.It’s been so long and you’ve grown so beautiful.You’ve grown a lot but you still have a long way to go.I’m still very proud of you and I want you to know that however far I may seem I’m always close to you if you need absolutely anything. You’re a wonderful person and I’m sure you’ll always be happy.Goodbye.

Ade – That is your name right?I’m just kidding. I don’t think I’ve EVER met someone as…larger than life as you.And no I don’t mean it in the ironic way you’re thinking of.I mean that you’ve just turned my world upside down over and over again that I just don’t know if I’m on the ceiling or on the ground anymore. You’re loud,annoying,crazy,you’re a foul-mouth,yet you still manage to keep me interested.We have totally different views on any subject,yet arguing was never more fun.You never listen to my advice although you insist that I tell you what to do.You just drive me nuts,but you’re one of my best friends and I really have no idea how my life would be without you.Probably with less heart attacks and less fun.So I go for heart attacks. I think there’s not even one conversation I’ve had with you(even those where we actually fought) when I haven’t laughed or grinned.Sometimes you leave me without words(and it’s not always in a good way).Still I’m glad I know you for over seven months and that we’re friends even though in the begining none of us thought we’d make it over two weeks.It just goes to show you that plans never work out.(Oh and remember that you’ll miss your wedding because of me 🙂 ).Goodbye.

Diana – I don’t even know where to begin…It’s like you just appeared out of nowhere when I needed it most. You just showed up and you never left to my content.I can’t even begin to describe what I feel. You’ve blown my mind and amazed me every single day.What’s so special about you?Well I don’t know what everyone else thinks but to me you’re just incredible.I don’t think there’s even one person in this world that I can relate to more than you.You’re a loving and caring soul,you’re pure and beautiful,you’re funny and inteligent,you understand everything I’m going through as if it were you and I think I feel the same.You’re not interesting…you’re fascinating.I’d just like to spend as much time as possible with you.You colour my world and you put a smile on my face everytime.I just don’t know what to say.Things feel so simple and natural around you.Maybe I’m crazy,maybe I’m stupid but that’s just how I feel and I’m not going to lie about this. I wish that you’d always be a part of my life…but if this should ever end I want you to know that I am happy that in this life I had someone like you there.You really made a huge difference although it may not seem like that.I wish things could stay simple but somehow they always tend to get complicated…What can I say, there are some things that just happen…I’m sorry…Diana-chan…Goodbye…

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Daca(Leapsa)…

A venit momentul pentru o noua leapsa(oricum nu mai executasem de mult),de data asta de la Alice .

Ce-ai fi dacă ai fi (nu ce ai vrea sa fii, ci ce ai fi):

O piesă de îmbrăcăminte: Un pulover gros de iarna care isi face rolul cand ai nevoie de el dar abia astepti sa scapi de el cat mai devreme.

O pereche de încălţări: Pantofi sport – Comfortabili si eleganti dar nu prea cautati

O bijuterie: (Aici sunt putin egoist pentru ca exista o singura bijuterie pentru mine si anume: ) Inelul meu de pe degetul inelar al maini drepte cumparat cu 5 Euro din Italia acum in 2005.Nu e nimic special dar cumva cred ca ma reprezinta.

O carte: Manifestul Fotbalist – Traian Ungureanu – Critica, Legende, Frumusetea Sporturilor, Pasiune: Tot ce iti poti dori.

Un artist: Un scriitor sceptic cu tendinte romantice(nr. o corcitura) depinzand de starea de spirit.Cronicar de sentimento-metru.

O melodie/piesă/cântec: The Script – The Man Who Can’t Be Moved(‘Cause if one day you wake up/and find that you’re missing me/and your heart starts to wonder/where on this earth I could be,/Thinking maybe you’d come back here/to the place that we’d meet/Then you’d see me waiting for you/on the corner of the street,/So I’m not moving/I’m not moving)

Un film: The Shawshank Redemption

O ţară: Japonia – On an island/In the sea/Lies Japan/Waiting for me

Un oraş: Tokio – The place where dreams come true when you least expect it.O surpriza mereu placuta te asteapta pe strazile din Tokio(in afara de criminali si hoti 🙂 )

Un obiect: Un ampermetru dintr-un circuit – Cu cat creste curentul din viata mea cu atat mai multa intensitate capata ea,dar circuitul poate fi scurtcircuitat foarte usor si totul se naruie si ajunge la 0. (Scuza-ti comparatia dar facultatea asta ma omoara 🙂 ).

M-am achitat de sarcina si urmeaza victumele:

Aphrodite Floare De Colt Ucide Visul  si cine mai doreste 🙂 .

Published in: on November 6, 2008 at 11:58 pm  Comments (7)  

Vorbe Fara Sens…

Okay so I have a lot on my mind and I really want to express it all.I’m not sure if I’ll be able to do it just the way I want to but I’ll try.

First of all I want to write a little appreciation paragraph for a special little friend of mine. She’s something quite rare nowadays isn’t she?A little edelweiss that just happend to sprout a little in my garden.Because of it’s rarity you can hardly find out things about it,but the little that you know can always take you by surprise and bring a smile on your face.Maybe you know her better than you expected but then again that could be just your imagination.She’s still a bud but she shows many signs of maturity and I’m sure she’ll turn into a beautiful flower one day.More than that actually…A remarcable flower,one rare among it’s already rare kind. I could be prawling around and writing to much but I prefer to keep it at this now and just thank the edelweiss for the petal in my garden.

Next is the person whom’s life I promissed to ruin,with her consent of course.I mean where do you find such people?Sure some like a little more adventure but come on.This project is huge.Ruining someone’s life can take time and effort I may not be willing to give.Then again this is so much fun I can’t imagine what I’d do right now without these action-filled moments.And the real fun has yet to begin…My friend prepare for the ride has just started turning.Your life will be full of twists and turns that you can’t even imagine although you already are a living plot-twist.Nonetheless you’re still as beautiful as a chrysanthemum and as witty as a…well i don’t think flowers are witty.Nevertheless my breath of fresh air,till we meet again,which will inevitably happen soon,Au Revoir.

So much more to write,so little power.Oh blast this limited world,where time is of the essence.Stupid stupid time that is never enough or it takes too long for something to happen.Being in the right place, at the right time is quite hard you know?And you try and you struggle but then you’re still at that standstill,being just a second too late.Oh blast you evil time that prevents us from reaching our goals so many times.Damn you for never being precise in your actions.You never say if now’s the moment to act.You confuse us in thinking that it’s the right thing to do and then you blow us off.But I’m sick of living by your rules.I shall defy them and prove to you that it is not you who decide when something must be done,but each person in particular. And if we’re on the subject of time,and being in the right place, at the right time, have you ever felt that you’re there?What did you feel then?For me it’s like being able to close my eyes and still see everything,maybe even clearer.You’re integrated in that scenary and you’re one with nature for at least a little bit.

Change is something debatable right?What’s your opinion on change?Is it good or bad?Do you prefer to stay in your close and comfortable zone or do you want to take a risk and find out what it would be like to change something in your life?Of course change is a double-egded sword but wielding it means mastery of life itself.Some things are so beautiful…it’s just hard to let go but a man has to move on with his life and maybe those things are in the way…so he decides to change himself and take a risk.Maybe he’ll fail and have nothing to go back to,but he’ll be content with the fact that he tried.It’s time for my change now.It’s time for my way of the ninja to unfold and my promises to be kept.It’s time to realize the potential I have and stop making the mistakes I’ve kept making until now. I know there’s something waiting out there for me and so I have to grab life by the horns and wrestle it to the ground.So determination,guide me and show the non-belivers that their irony won’t reach me,that I will not be stopped and that I’ll prove to everyone what I’m really capable of.

My end is not that of any other man(and with this I will conclude because I’m too tired to go on). I’m an excesive romantic that just finds crazy ways to make things work.I need nothing more than a simple girl that I can sweet off her feet.I ran away from home once for this girl,having no insurence whatsoever that I was going to be accepted.I hopped on the train and just went to another city where I did whatever crazy thing came up in my head to find her.Sure I got turned down but that doesn’t mean I’ll change.Maybe there’s something wrong with me but that’s just the way I am and I’ll do whatever I can to just turn her world upside down.If it’ll never work then it means this was just not meant for me and my life was one big try.One thing I know…I’ll die with a smile whatever the situation may be.

Now that I’ve rambled so much sensless and stupid stuff that you won’t read,well I just feel good that I got a little off my soul.I wish you guys happiness,time,instincts and the power to do what you feel…

Published in: on November 1, 2008 at 4:29 am  Comments (2)