Review 2007…

Inca un an a trecut…ce poti spune despre el?cum a fost pentru tine?pentru mine a fost din nou dulce amarui…a fost o experienta…am trait pasiune incredibila pentru o persoana pe care am cunoscut-o la inceputul acestui an…flacara s-a stins incetul cu incetul…s-au deschis noi drumuri si orizonturi…am descoperit pasiune pentru o arta ascunsa…mi-am creat amintiri alaturi de persoane pe care nu le voi uita niciodata…amintiri frumoase…am cunoscut o iluzie…am cunoscut unele persoane mai bine…am zburat cu imaginatia…am visat viitorul…am sfidat destinul…m-am maturizat…am crescut…am realizat ce vreau intr-o mare masura…am redescoperit melodia…am redescoperit visul si ambitia…stelele si sperantele…si am redescoperit acea prapastie adanca…care se numeste dragoste…am trecut prin multe…neavand motiv sa le enumar ma opresc aici…dar spun asa…lucrul cel mai benefic pentru mine in acest an ai fost tu…tu blog-ul meu…m-ai ajutat sa descopar unele lucruri care pareau departe de mine…ma simt implinit cand scriu…e ceea ce imi incanta toate simturile…si voi scrie in continuare… daca nu pentru altii atunci pentru mine…asa ca…in ultima zi din an…iti multumesc…ca mi-ai deschis ochii…

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Published in: on December 31, 2007 at 1:00 am  Comments (3)  

I Miss…

I miss the days I used to dream…I miss the days I used to talk to the stars…I miss the days when I could just spread my wings and fly away from all my troubles…I miss spanish eyes…I miss carnival…I miss hide and seek…I miss my old crush…I miss my nights out with my pussycat doll…I miss my evenings hangin’ out with my gang…I miss being a minor…I miss listening to good music…I miss my moments of meditation…I miss martial arts…I miss swimming…I miss summer vacations…I miss my old classmates…I miss my old neighbours…I miss my old carefree self…I miss inocence…I miss spending nights talking to aichu…I miss playing with my former pet rabbit Jacky…I miss wathing Jackie Chan cartoons…I miss a good anime…I miss my days spent with my best friend watching Cartoon Network…I miss my days spent playing street fighter II on sega with Liviu…I miss recording stupid stuff with him and by myself…I miss my old classmistress…I miss singing old boygroup songs…I miss my always optimist self…I miss my passion for everything…I miss going to picknicks with family friends…I miss kissing your lips…I miss making you smile…I miss dancing to our favorite tune…I miss dirrecting music clips in my head…I miss flashbacks…I miss deja vus…I miss breathing in and feeling the vibe of the world in that second…I miss my friends from Craiova Ploiesti Bucuresti Sibiu Tn Magurele and Timisoara…I miss talking to my violet lavander dream…I miss snow…I miss snowfights and snowmen…I miss snowangels in my yard…I miss not giving a damn for what idiots say…I miss my sensei who used to push me to the limits…I miss my sensei who used to enrage me and provoke me so that I would overcome those limits…I miss the people that believed in me…I miss trying to get your atention…I miss playing Serious Sam on my first friend’s birthday with my amigos…I miss wanting to be a priest, an actor,a singer…I miss playing with the original No Signal…I miss playing Pokemon on an old gameboy emulator on my computer…I miss Duke Nukem3D,Earthworm Jim,Road Rash…I miss playing Transformers in the yard behing the block of flats…I miss loosing a bet to my neighbour…I miss expresing my feelings…I miss the seaside…I miss drinking a beer with my hombre on a terrese high abouve the rocky shores of the black sea…I miss singing along my friends at a concert…I miss the stupid jokes of Mr Dumitru…I miss falling of my skees…I miss peace in the class…I miss seeing my mom really happy…I miss going to soccer matches with my dad…I miss protectig people…I miss being motivated by someone or by a perfect piece of music…I miss the perfect harmony…I miss dancing my way through life…I miss feeling unconditioned…I miss trying to make the world better…I miss you and you and you too…I miss the coka cola truck from the commercial…I miss the beautifull spring flowers from my front yard…I miss my little cousin with her deep blue eyes…I miss never giving up hope…I miss seeing myself propose to you…I miss living my peacefull life alongside you all…I miss knowing that all of you are by me…But most of all I miss…I miss being in love…I miss loving you all…I miss loving my life…YOU…

Published in: on December 27, 2007 at 12:37 am  Comments (2)  

Sacrifice…

As you fall down and everything you did and all the things that were left undone go through your mind…and you realise that it’s all over…and you can’t belive it…there’s one thing that always apears…it’s in all of your memories…it’s in your mind, your heart, your body and in your soul…and you remember the way you touched her…and the way you wanted to tell her you loved her…and how you wanted to know how her lips felt…and how you know you wanted her so bad…so bad that you would have done everything for her…and you did…you gave her the only thing you can’t get back…your last breath…and as you fall for the stone cold ground…you feel her catching you…and you with a last glimpse of reality you hear her asking…”Why?”…the answear is so clear…in your last moments on this earth…the only true moments of happyness…you tell her…”Because I Love You…”…and then it all ends…your eyes close slowly and the last thing you feel are her tears dripping down on your face…and her sweet sweet lips touching your own…with that you know you can let go…even though you know you will miss everything…you will let go…leaving her behind…with your lifeless body in her arms…and as you look down on her…you think about it one more time…how you loved her…how much she meant to you… and in the end…you just hope she loved you back at least a little…

Love is confusing…it is unpredictable and can happen when you least expect it… it makes you see people in a way you never saw them before… how sweet she is to me in these moments… I can’t belive something like this happend… until the end of your life you wonder about how it hit you… this feeling called love… this sweet sweet thing… why her… why so out of a sudden…  and you know it’s wrong… your head tells you this… but your heart is driving you crazy… beating slower and faster everytime you see her… IT’S ALL SO CONFUSING!?!?! This kind of love…that happens so sudden… that you don’t expect… it’s the most beautifull tipe of love…but also the most painfull…and in that moment… when it all goes dark… you will remember her… the one you never had… and wonder one last time… how it would have been…that sweet sweet kiss…and you say it… goodbye my love…

Published in: on December 8, 2007 at 10:50 pm  Comments (2)